
I found this older picture of mom and the twins, Mailee and Murren. I just love it...she is hanging in there and seems to be smiling whenever we talk. God is so awesome! He is sufficient to help us, love us and protect us in all our needs!!!
Day three....and it already feels like forever at times. But really every time the tears come to me my God comes to me Bigger and Better!! How amazing and how thankful I am for my God!!!! Thank you Jesus Christ!!
Today I started to have the 'empty void feeling' rise up within me. Mom and dad are not here to call. Mom will not be pulling into the driveway just to see us. She won't call me just to see what we are doing. Dad won't answer the phone because mom is in town, and because he won't answer the phone, I won't hear his health fact that I never knew before....and after he tells me that fact I won't hear his cute and very contagious little chuckle with a "Oh, I why did I just tell you that, you did not call for me!" ! I teared up and I hated it! Then I looked over and saw my cell phone, it was fully charged so I took it off the charger. On the phone pops up a sweet little text from my Aunt Ginger! She wrote, “Love You :)” Now, that was God, that was a my big, ever loving and tender Daddy giving me a text love hug from family! Thank you Ginger so much for texting me! That text made me realize that I am not alone, my mom, my dad and all of us are not alone!! It's ok to cry and hurt, but oh how glorious it is to believe and be comforted in His love!!!
Every time I feel overwhelmed and sad, I must think and believe! My God loves my parents and will not forsake them. Jesus will not leave them alone! As my sister-in-law Heather said, “Tami, your family always gets through hard times, and with joy! Tami that is what is so amazing about you all.” That is so true, my parents never turn from God, they never doubt His love and they are always an amazing example of looking on the “Brightside” in whatever situation they find themselves! :)
This is my hope right now, this is my peace....just thought I would share.
It's done! It's well after 2:00p.m. and both my parents are in the “unknown land”. What in the world? My dad and my mom in a prison camp? I have had my ups and my downs today. My ups was when I was busy with my own kids and my own affairs....my downs was when I would think about them. I just about “Lost it” when I went to the store this evening. In the store, I saw all the things my mom would buy if she were here. She was always at the store....and yes, it was Ray's, and yes, she was always shopping for more than for her and dad! This is the the deal....I had to take the first letter to them form the kids, so I had to go to town. With 8 children and two grandparents that they love it makes for a lot of letters!!!! Anyway, after 2:00p.m. I took the twins with me to the store and they were so happy to be shopping with mommy...(me), so I had to hide my sadness and tears. It worked! They were the cutesiest little happy shopping M&M twins in town! God is good to help in all those little details we need help with....thank you Lord! I know I gotta love the ones here by me just as much as I miss those away from my side!
It was difficult tonight when I knew they were both in jail. I tried to call mom's cell phone...no answer. I cried. I tried to call dad's cell number....no answer again (I must like to make myself cry!) Anyway, I thought to call Troy (my big brother). He was gone and his wife Heather answered. That really was a blessing! I was a mess....so sad, trying to be brave. She said the words I needed to hear! Wow, thanks sister! She reminded me...“Tami, one of the things that your family does that amazed me when I first met you all was that your family could get through difficult times smiling! Always your family was looking at the good, never wavering in your faith or sad or depressed!” (Well, that's my version of her pep talk). It was awesome anyway!!!
So quickly I post and I write, no matter what.....look to Christ, look to the eternal life, no matter what your going through cling to Jesus Christ! There is no way I could survive this without my God!!!